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I'm getting more and more frustrated with how things are going. All I seem to get is negativity from people and the shitty part is, no one has the balls to even confront me. This is going to end badly.

Isolation.

My feet are killing me. The people that I work with all decided to abandon me and allow me to do a job meant for three people. I'm not complaining though, I could care less about it. I just wish that I'd get invited to places by my friends. I can't really think of anything that was positive today. I'm going to search for a second job, hopefully at Verizon or a place in the mall. Something that's easy and not a huge stress. Either that or I'm giving up.

Purging my soul.

For a while I've been keeping my thoughts to myself and not letting my opinion get the best of me, but lately I've been finding myself speaking out more against my own mind and saying what I feel. All it does it make people mad at me and does no good for anyone in the situation. But I'm going to use this as a proverbial "release" of my thoughts, to prevent such things from occurring anymore. Whenever I do anything, there's always that one person who feels the need to shoot down what I have to say and treat me like shit. If this keeps up, I'm going to strangle whoever does it in person. I'm not going to write a sob story, they piss me off, even my own. I don't care about life. I give no shits about living and not existing, whether I believed it at one point or another, I think it's all a big fucking hoax now. If things keep going the way they've been, I'm going to give and give and give until I'm fucking dust. Maybe then I'll be content with my existence.